James and I were going to take turns going out today. He'd go to the hobby shop and wherever else he wanted to stop, and then I was going out on my own for a little while, to get millet for Pidge and maybe stop at Michael's.

Mom has said she wants to go out. So I've just finished helping her get washed and we are waiting for James to get back. I'm glad she wants to go out but I so wanted some time out on my own. I tend to dash in and out of stores to get it over with, especially now that it's so hot, and now I'll have to plod instead. I hate summer, I hate summer, I hate summer...

At least the mosquito bites have stopped itching. (I went into the back yard this morning to make sure there weren't any tree branches touching the roof—they aren't, but they're getting close, so we'll have to cut them at some point, since I know they touch the roof when it rains—because I found an ant in the hall bath upstairs last night. Maybe Ingrid brought it in; she did walk across the lawn... Anyway, James got the ladder out and raked what pine straw there was up there down, so that may help; there's nowhere for the ants to nest if they get up there.) I wish Steve would come over and clean the yard. Maybe the mosquitoes would go away if he did.

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Comments:

Um... do I need to whap you again?

Linda, you're there 24/7 for your mother - you are NOT, I repeat NOT being selfish when you wish for a breather. If you insist on thinking that way, you're going to build a hell of a lot of resentment in your psyche - and then you're going to feel a lot of guilt because you felt resentful.

Take time for yourself, Linda. Trust James to take care of your mom for a couple of hours, and go recharge yourself. You'll be the better for it. Catch a movie, go to a bookstore, go to a park and sit under a tree and stare at the clouds. The trick is to get away - and you aren't bad, selfish, evil, nasty, or being a bad daughter if you do so.

J.

# posted by  Jerry : 5:49:00 PM

 

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